Decided that I'm going to brave the outside world today! Have some errands that need to be done, ASAP, and I figure that waiting another five days for my persistent "nice guy" stalker to give up won't make any difference. The only thing that I'm really nervous about is that he knows EXACTLY what my car looks like and he knows EXACTLY  where my house is. I've also seen him drive by my house multiple times. I just have the terrible feeling that as soon as I leave my driveway he's going to show up. >: I I figure if that happens, nice guy or not, he's going to get a verbal beat down. MUDDAFUKKA STAAY AWAAAY FROOM MEEEEE.

Learning Irish Gaelic slooowly but surely through a podcast. Dia dich, Internet! Um, if there's any Gaelic speakers on my f-list, please forgive me if I muddle the language too badly.

There's a possibility that I'm not cool enough to be a Mac owner. I'm just saying. I keep trying to right click on my touch pad, and I make >:( face when I keep seeing my empty desktop. It's sad when my normality for computers is a cluttered desktop and cleanliness makes me feel grumpy.

I do like the noises it makes, though. The trashcan sound is also very cute.

Would it be a bad sign if I named my Mac? I usually don't assign names to inanimate objects, but it feels like its required. It'd be like having a pedigree poodle and just calling it "That Dog".

If I did name my Mac, it would be called Joanna. Not that I've already named it, of course. Um.

Star Trek uniforms. AWWW YEAH.

Well. Maybe not everyone, but I certainly will be. 8D

Have offically graduated! Now on the slow slope towards college. :D

Orientation for GMU is two days from now. I'm driving up with a friend, so that helps my nerves a bit. Hopefully everything will go well, no death, no maiming, etc. etc.

Currently terribly bored, as I've quit my (four year) job and now spend my days fiddling around the house. Was planning on trying to vernture out into the world today, but found out yesterday that inspection sticker on car is six months old. OOOPS. Way to go, VA cops. You're on the ball! Of course, since I've now realized it, the moment I drive my car I'll get pulled over by a cop. >:( DAMN FRUSTRATING.

My mother is continuing to be crazy. She gets angry at the slightest provocation, and stays cold and standoffish for days. I feel like I'm the parent and she's the teenager. My dad continues to tell me too much about their relationship. I don't want to know the sorid little details about what my mom has done now. I just want to stick my head in the sand until I get to college. After that, they can duke it out as much as they want and I won't have to deal with the fallout.

Merlin has premiered on NBC. I feel super proud of it, as silly as that sounds. Though watching the first episode makes me cringe. NNNgggh acting skills plz find them.

Trying to use my tablet again. Trying to get in shape. Trying to stay sane and out of house.

Need to find more angry face icons. Spock isn't cutting it.

I do not wish to sleep, and I have just read cute little xxxHOlic stories. This obviously requires me to read all of xxxHolic currently online. FOR THE REST OF THE NIGHT.

I flipped through a combined series of Witchblade in Borders the other day, after having no luck finding any Sandman issues that I haven't bought yet. It was surprisingly good.

( Semi-rant on Witchblade )

Six days until graduation! Eeeeee happy.

Was putting a giant audio-book on "Do-It Yourself Spanish" away at work yesterday and managed to drop the mother-fucker RIGHT ON MY FOOT. The sharp end down, of course. I did the akward hissing through teeth thing that means I'm trying not to swear like a sailor, and went to get a band-aid from behind the main reference desk. One of the libs made this 8O face when she saw my foot, which had decided to gush the darkest blood I've ever seen. Apparently, I hit one of the main blood vessels on my foot which counts a major injury, so I have to fill out an accident report form. >:(

Not happy: discovering that my anemia has not gone away, and does not like it when I do not get enough protein or iron. >: \ I've spent my day lightheaded and groggy, looking up ridiculous gay shit. AND BY GAY I MEAN ANIME GAY.

The anime-idea on what makes up gay realtionships befuddles me. Apparently, in manga world, when someone says

"Stop, that hurts!" while crying, it acutally means

"YAAAAY MORE SEX NAO PLZ."

>: ( >: ( >: ( DO NOT WANT FANDOM DO NOT WANT.

This is what happens when I spend all day on the Internets.

I'm almost done with high school, just have to show up once more to turn in some art stuff. Feels very odd, with everyone asking if I'm excited and me going

"I think I am, but that might just be indigestion."

Seriously though, I'll probably get hit with the YAAAAY HS IS DONE FOREVAAAR bug about two weeks after graduation. HAHA LATE BLOOMER THAT'S ME.

Haven't posted in so long don't know where to begin. Uh, I love the new Star Trek movie, Chris Pine is a hotass. Plus, the epic gay of Spock and Kirk cannot be denied! My delicious bookmarks for Star Trek are already over 38. Yum, fandom.

Hopefully I can start posting more once summer starts. Hopefully!

KYAAAAAAA KUROSHITSUJI UPDATE!

Fffffffyes the servants are actually badass mofos that kill EVERYTHING. EVERYTHING. Maidu turns into sniper, gardener turns into zombie-killer, cook turns into detontion man. I almost feel bad for the poor circus people. Their asses have been severly kicked.

If only it didn't take another two months to update...

I work in a library. It's almost a requirement that you're a big reader. We joke that we don't know how we're supposed to work around all this temptation, blah blah blah. Normal dork stuff. However, I SHOULD HAVE READ MORE OF THESE BLASTED BOOKS. I'm pretty embarrassed to admit that most of these were books that I had to read because of school. My co-librarians would be ashamed!

( Big Read! )

Only 22. I'll never get to 100 because I can't stomach Charles Dickens. Trust me, I've tried.

I looooove Twitter. It's everything I liked about Facebook (namely, the "what are you doing" box) without the creepy feeling that you know too much about people's lives. Does anyone else have that problem? I always feel a bit like a pedo, reading everyone's conversations on FB. And come people share waaaaayy too much. WAY TOO MUCH.

YAY SPRING. <3I always know spring's coming when my hands and feet are warm. One of the pluses (sp?) of living in warm climate. Spring means us losers with freaky circulation get warm!

THANK BABY JESUS. Bleach has once again resumed its epic awesomeness. We went through some bad times there (DON'T WANT PLOT JUST PRETTY PICTURES DAMMIT) but we're in the green! A new transformation sequence for Ichigo always means good things.

I judge how well series are doing by the amount of fan post that shows up on art sites. My two favorites are y!gal and deviantart. For example, y!gal has two Bleach fanarts in the Tops and at least four Naruto. Deviantart has one Bleach and one Naruto on the front page. THUS THEY ARE DOING WELL. Katekyo Hitman Reborn, xxxHolic, Tsubasa, and Eyeshield have nada. So they have nothing that exciting going on right now. PLOT-WISE. I personally could just look at pages and pages of CLAMP art and be satisfied, but most people can't.

ANYWAY. Ffffff I love it when Ichigo gets more Hollow-ier. Right now I am only reading it for Hollow-Ichigo, not gonna lie. Ichigo himself irritates me. He gets too caught up in his need to fight fair, and win fair. I don't think he's got a good war mentality for someone who's on the front lines. He's treating battles like they're matches with referees, not life and death situations. The Hollow just freaks out and kills shit. That's what I wanna see in a shonen hero! Violence, not plot! ARGH TITE KUBO WHAT ARE YOU DOING TO THIS CHARACTER? I want them to lose, so they can get to a point where that "not taking things seriously" attitude goes away. EMOTIONAL TRAUMA PLZ.

Naruto looks like it's hit the ground running. Kishimoto could've killed the past few chapters with some ridiculous bullshit, but he restrained himself. His characters I like better than Bleach's. They're in a horrific situation with the village being destroyed and massive amounts of friends and family dead but they're KICKING ASS AND TAKING NAMES. Naruto has just discovered the SOPER SEKRIT hideout of Pein and paper girl after killing fuck-loads of evil mega-zombies. Hinata declared her love in the most awesome way possible. SASU-GAY IS NO WHERE IN SIGHT. Bleach is weak in comparison. Everyone is struggling to stay alive and whining at the same time. Ichigo is irritating. Orihime is irritating. Ishida, despite his massive amounts of training, is USELESS. And nothing makes sense.

I digress. Bleach has sucked, but is getting better now that Ichigo can snap and becomes a awesome killing machine (I'll admit, I laughed when he stabbed Ishida. SO PERFECT.) at any time. Naruto has stayed awesome, and hopefully will continue to be awesome after Naruto kills the real Pein and kicks Sasuke's ass. IT HAS TO HAPPEN SOMETIME, RIGHT?

I just wrote way too much about non-existent characters. >:\

Uh I have lots of real life bullshit going on right nao, but addressing it when I just repressed it to a major degree is useless. SO. Expect some emo!rant in the future.

Edit: Ok, jk about the non-bullshit in Naruto. Kishimoto just spent the past four chapters waxing poetic about Pein- I MEAN NAGATO'S- life before insanity. It ended with Naruto deciding that he wouldn't kill Pein BECAUSE IT'S THE RIGHT THING TO DO. *facepalm* Fuck off, shit manga. You disgust me with your pacifism!

SO. Sims 3. I dunno. It looks fucking fabulous, but we all know that it would mean a new graphics card and some new hard drives, unless all of use loser-gamers uninstall all of our shit. I'LL BUY YOU WHEN YOU'RE CHEAP AND EASY, BITCH.

Dollhouse is pretty rockin'. Plot gets weird at times, and the action is pretty fucking repetitious (I dunno if that's even the right word DAMN U SPELL CHEX)but enough of Joss shines through that it makes it worth it. PLUS it has a hot British lady (DeWitt), fabulous fucking-Eliza (Echo), and the obligatory nerd-man who's name I dunno. He's my new Xander. Now I'm just waiting for another hot enough guy for my shallow, shallow standards and the slash will write itself. >:D

Speaking of Buffy guess who just got her 2nd season DVD in the mail for free? 8D ILU SWAPTREE.

AHHHHH TWO MONTHS TIL GRADUATION I'M ALREADY SCARED OF WALKING AND TRIPPING. :\

I'm in a cursing mood. This constant stream of curses has been going through my head all day. In my defense, I've had a test each period. OKAY? HAHAHA OH I HOPE THERE'S NO MIND READERS HERE. 8D

Uh I don't even know. THIS OBVIOUSLY CALLS FOR MORE POKEMON. *flees* DON'T JUDGE ME.

Spring is most definitely my favorite season. All the yum yum yummy flowers shooting up from underground and all the pretty trees blooming. <3 I LOVES IT.

I think I'm going to try and start a mini-garden this year. Give me something to unwind with after school and work. Meditating never really worked for me because I always wanted to do something with my hands. I'm a fiddler.

Finished a research essay on the book 1984. SO PROUD OF MYSELF. I hope I get a decent grade. : \

Went to the Newseum today for a field trip. This is the first field trip I've had in years, so it's pretty ironic that I go during my senior year. Or something. I dunno, I get easily worn out by being in public for loooooooooong periods of time. Zzzzzz.......

I currently has some massive anger going on, so I figured it would (possibly) help if I posted.

I got a nasty virus the other day, and managed to get it off with Norton AntiVirus. Yay! A few days later, it came back. NOT YAY. I ran Norton again, updated everything that needed to be updated, and restarted my computer. Upon restart, it logged on, showed a blank desktop with no icons or anything, and then logged me back off. IT REPEATED THIS FIFTY FUCKING TIMES.

Apparently, it changed some of the most BASIC FILES IN MY COMPUTER SO I CAN NO LONGER LOG ON OR OFF. Fucking smart little piece-of-shit virus. I'm running soem things to try and fix it, but nothing is happening so far. I'm writing this from my dad's computer.

WISH ME LUCK PLZ.

P.S.- YOU WILL GET A EXTRA-EXTRA-EXTRA ANGRY POST IF I HAVE TO WIPE MY COMPUTER. AND I'LL HAVE TO KILL SOME BITCHES, TOO. you're next you goddam crappy computer!

Bipolar bitches. That's all I'm saying. : <

Uhhh, I guess people who are ridiculously flaky.. Superfical, changes their mind ever second, never knows what they're thinking. UM NO I'M NOT BITTER WHY DO YOU ASK?

ANGRY TEEN RANT/start:

FFFFF OKAY. I woke up an hour early this morning to finish homework. I didn't get it done and was EXHAUSTED. So I told my dad that I was going to skip first period. He was okay with that, so I went back to sleep. I set my alarm for 8, and woke up at 8. My dad came in and said he was going to work. I nodded, rolled over, and went back to sleep. OOPS.

I woke up at 12:30, well into my third period. I really didn't want to go in just for that and fourth period, so I stayed home. When my mom texted my, I said my day was going great, blah blah blah. Went to work at 4, came home at 8. Around 8, my dad texted me and said that school called, and I was absent today. Another OOPS. I said yeah, my bad, didn't go to school, woke up too late.

Got home, and they were PISSED. ABOUT THE WRONG THING. They didn't fucking care that I missed school, they were pissed that I lied to them BY EMISSION. I ONLY ADMITTED TO IT WHEN THEY CALLED ME ON IT. Okay fine. I can sorta get that. BUT THEY DON'T LET IT GO.

"Do you think we're stupid?"

"Why are you trying to bullshit us?"

AND MY PERSONAL FAVORITE: "You aren't respecting us!"

KAJHDLKASJHDALKSJDHA FAIL. I know it's time to move out of my parent's house when them saying those three, simple things puts me in the red zone. ANGER TO THE MAX!

I admitted it. I was in the wrong, I'm sorry. BUT THEY DON'T LET IT GO. My mom even repeated it twice. "Why aren't you admitting you were in the wrong? You don't get it!"

GODDAMIT, I DO GET IT, BUT YOU NEVER FUCKING ADMIT IT WHEN YOU'RE WRONG, WHY SHOULD I? FFffffffffff I hate the grumpy teenager rage. I can tell I'm being illogical, but my hormones are still telling me "BE PISSED, DAMMIT."

That's why I'm huddled in my tiny bathroom with the fan running, typing out my pissy little teen woes into LJ. HAHAHAH I'm being such a sterotype.  >:[ Soon I'll be going "OH GOD NO 1 UNDERSTAND MEEEEE!1!!!1!!"

STILL PISSED, GODDAMT.  FFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFF bleh.

I brought goodies home from work for them, too. Now I've moved into sad/pathetic mode, FUCKING FABULOUS.

ANGRY TEEN RANT/end.


Anyway. My day was great, other than that shit. Listened to a podcast on Shintoism (?) at work today, along with Zencast, a Buddhist podcast. Very relaxing. Also came up with my own 6 word autobiography, as seems to be the popular trend right now. Here it is!

Optimistic procrastinator, ironically happy and successful.

I need an icon that is all cuss-words. ONLY IT SHALL PROPERLY CONVEY MY ANGER AT HUMANITY/PARENTS.

Okay! It's been a very long week, but I'm finally getting to posting! It's only taken THREE FUCKING TRIES. 8(

First off, my trip down to Edisto was pretty fuckin' ninja. It may have been cool and windy and rainy the whole time I was there, but that island is beautiful. And the houses are gorgeous, and the grits are great. My grandrents were happy to see me, and we had a nice time talking about useless stuff. Now I give you some pics!
( Pics be here! )

There were plenty more, but most of those have me going \o/ with 8D face. I'm in no hurry to paste my face around the Internets, thx.

I took a seven hour train ride down to Edisto, and was pretty bored UNTIL I DISCOVERED MY GAMEBOY EMULATOR STORED ON MY COMPUTER. For those in the not-know, a emulator can emulate any system you want it to, on your computer. I use mine to play Pokemon. WHAT SHUT UP IT'S COOL OK? Ffffffff I goddam love that game. I make high pitch yips whenever one of mine evolve. YOU THINK I'M JOKING. 8|

I've recently started a swaptree account, and it's fucking amazing. I got Bridget Jones Diary and swapped out some lame-ass fantasy books I read once. MY GLEE IS EPIC.

School is feeling pretty useless ever since I got accepted into GMU. I'd hate to be one of those slacker kids that let their grades drop once they get accepted BUT IT'S SO TEMPTING. Arrrghh everything feels so unimportant! WHY DO I NEED TO WORK ON THE GODDAM NEWSPAPER SINCE I'M IN COLLEGE. WHY. >8| Now if only my teachers would understand.....

I finally stared a Delicious account. My computer already COMPLETELY erased my favorites once, she can do it again. Now I'm prepared. I also get a little kick out of organizing all my tags. SO I'M A FREAK SHUT UP.

EEEEE Merlin is supposed to start filming in a week from Monday! EXCITED. The Merlin fandom is pretty amazing, with continuing to crank out fics and vids and art even though no new shows are coming out. ILU FANDOM. *kiss kiss*

Mmmm that's all I can think of right now. I should post a perfume review, but I'm too lazy. Off to eat soup!

Got back from South Caroline at 5pm today. Fucking exhausting seven hour train ride. Spent most of the time playing Pokemon on my lappie through an emulator. More on actual trip later. For now:

1.) Most of SC seems to be swamps. Disgustingly flat swamps.
2.) A small portion of SC is hauntingly beautiful Live Oaks with Spanish Moss that are hundreds of years old and fucking huge.
3.) The beach is not fun when 45 and rainy.
4.) Same with the added bonus of strong winds.
5.) My grandrents are amazing.
6.) The Sea Cow is amazing.
7.) Fucking expensive beach houses are amazing to look at, not to rent.

Bedtime bitches. Chao!

P.S.- NGGGGGHHHAAAAHHHH DRASTICALLY REDEFINING PROTOCOL IS FINSIHED! holy fuck it's amazing. GO READ NOW. Unless you hate the gayness between two HOT BRITISH GUYS that is. Then you shouldn't.

Going down to grandparent's winter apartment for the weekend, on the TRAIN. BY MYSELF. D: I'm only a little worried, but that trip takes a long while. I don't want to get bored!

This'll be my last update for a bit. Might post some pictures when I get back. See ya LJ!

EEEEE I LOVE WIND STORMS. We've been having fucking-fantastic winds going on all throughout the day, and even though my hairs a mess, I LOVE IT. It's like being Mary Poppins, without an umbrella. I even went on a walk with my spazz-dog, I was so happy! This is rare for me cause I keep exercise to a minimum. SHHH SHUDDUP.

Just shipped out my first trade for swaptree. I'm pretty excited about it and I hope it works.

Going down to SC this weekend to visit the grandparents. They're the sweetest things ever, and they spend every winter someplace nice and warm. It'll be my first time going down w/o my parents, so I'm excited/nervous.

The nasty throat is better. I've caught up at my Friend's List *cowers*. Good stuff going on. Going to snack on some chicken salad and sweet mashed potatoes I found in the fridge, do some art, and pack.

WHAT WHY DON'T I HAVE ICONS THAT REFLECT MY MOODS?!?!?! AARRRRRGGHH HULK SMASH.